Write a letter to myself.

You and I go back together, from the beginning. We are always connected to each other in a way that no one else can understand. We are together, walking together, sometimes we laugh, sometimes we cry together, but there is always me with you.

Always will be, or at least it should be.

But then, in some moments, I abandoned you. I think I'm grown up and I'm going my own way - though, sometimes, it's just following someone else's. I leave you confused, relying on the affection and encouragement of others who are inherently strangers, when I should be the one to help you. I should have hugged you, complimented you, cherished you - for all the good you brought to this world. But I couldn't do that. I rarely tell you that I love you, I admire you, you are beautiful, caring, intelligent, and strong.

I should have told you to ignore the people who mocked and slandered you, told you not to care what other people think, not to be afraid to be different, and not to be ashamed of yourself. Moreover, I should have ignored the people who scoffed and slandered, I shouldn't care what other people think, nor should I be ashamed of myself.

But I couldn't do that.

I speak and think badly of yourself. I feel ashamed of you. I wish, if only I were someone else who is more beautiful, more confident, and not you. I think you are not enough.I think that if you are a better person - more attractive, more funny,... then I will be more satisfied with you. I told you things I would never even say to someone I hate. Then, you take all those ridiculous nonsense words, put them in your head, and consider them true! And because of those things, I almost lost you.

I should have protected you.

I should have taken care of you.

I should have stood by for what you deserve.

I should have loved you.

I'm so sorry to disappoint you. I'm sorry for hurting, leaving, and not reminding you every second that you are truly amazing. You are really valuable. You are truly courageous and kind.

Please forgive me! You are really mean. You are very important. You are very beautiful. You are very smart. You are very strong. And, you are enough!

I know that, sometimes, we all go through tough times. Sometimes, life doesn't give us what we hoped for, nor does it go the way we thought it would. Surely, sometimes, you are also very frustrated and think that it is all your fault. But the truth is: You are not a failure yourself. You are strong and you will overcome. You persevere and when you come out of your troubles, you will be more YOU than ever before!

Indeed, we all need the respect, love, and friendship of others. But it is not necessary to have these things to become fully human!

You and I - we are complete enough. We will continue together. I got you, and this time, I won't let you go. Now and then, I will put your name at the top of my list of priorities.

Love forever,

I.